I'm back but not totallie back. Just wanna blog out my feelings here. Failure in work has always & still is a constant fear in my heart. I dunno why. Maybe its just me..... I know being stubborn wunch help. Am simply plain lazy. Fuck. Gosh` i do hate myself @ times! Further studies? Looking fer a new job? What do i reallie want?
Sometimes i reallie wish i'm born poor. At least, i'm not the stupid girl who doesn't lack cash now. Fuck` I'm not rich but the current situation is that... I'm contented with what i have now. & that makes me even lazier to go out & find a new job. I have shelter. I have food. I dunch reallie hafta worry bout bills not being paid. Arghs` This sucks. Took me alot of courage to blog this entry. I feel so useless & yet i'm NOT DOING ANITHING BOUT IT! Like wth....... sighs` I'm at my wits` end. I dunch wanna spend the rest of my weekdaes wandering ard! & yet i'm still doing that. Fuck` Fuck` FUCK! I reallie hate myself.
